Saturday, July 3, 2010
"No Regrets"
Last month, I wrote in my blog about a situation with my half-sister who was dying of terminal lung cancer. She had asked my brother not to tell me until she was dead. She passed away two days later so the bitterness on her part was never resolved. And...I could not attempt to find out what transpired that made her so resentful towards me. I have had a lot of time since then to re-evaluate our relationship. We had not had contact in years. She was one who never showed approval of me - nothing I ever did was good enough for her. Questions will always remain. Could I have done more to reconcile our relationship? Should I have picked up the phone and made an attempt to connect with her? Would it have helped? I have realized through this that it is hard to live with regrets and questions. Better to make an attempt to resolve a relationship than sit back and do nothing. If they don't accept it, you have done your part. I am trying not to live with the "regrets" and I am learning to trust God to bring me through a process of healing. A friend helped me realize lately that I am not grieving her death...I am grieving a relationship that truly never was and never will be. That says it so well. If God so speaks to your heart, reach out to someone in your life today that has been estranged and see what God can do. Don't be afraid, but step out in obedience and let God orchestrate the end result!
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